Five years ago yesterday, I was diagnosed and had had my first lap. Whilst I was upset to have the diagnosis, I was relieved that all the problems I'd been having had a name. After the lap I was back on my feet almost instantly and back to work 6 days later. I moved house … Continue reading What a difference 5 years makes
Thursday was my appointment with my consultant. I went in having lost 9.2kg since I last saw him. I was bloody proud of myself and a whole heap of nervous. I was really really hoping he would agree to surgery.... However, this didn't happen. I still have a lot of weight to lose before he … Continue reading Not quite the news I wanted
A week tomorrow, 11/5/17, I am seeing Mr P to find out whether he'll list me for surgery. I've lost just over 18 lb (8.3kg) and I'm hoping by then it'll be 21lb. I genuinely have no clue what he'll say and I'm struggling with that. If he lists me, then it'll be a wait to … Continue reading 8 Days To Go
Since finding out I can't have children in July, many people have sent their condolences and their kind wishes. There have also been a whole host of people who have said things that have "meant well" but have really stung. I read this on a friend's Facebook today and it totally made sense to me. … Continue reading What not to say…
One of the hardest things to deal with this week has been my broodiness. There have been times where I've felt myself desperately longing for a baby to be growing inside me. Whilst my head knows that it'll never happen,and my heart has grieved for the babies I haven't had, it would seem my … Continue reading Being Broody and Infertile
It was my 31st birthday yesterday. I was treated like a princess and it was wonderful, but it was another birthday without children. My husband and I have been doing some planning about the future and about us becoming parents. We have decided that we're going to sell our flat and my father in law … Continue reading Another trip around the sun!
I'm feeling strong enough to post about how life has brought me here. The story starts almost 15 years ago when, as a 16 year old, I went to see my GP with awful periods. I had times where I couldn't stand up because of the pain. My GP put me on the contraceptive combined … Continue reading How did I get here?
This isn't going to be a happy post. This is going to be a rant. This is me using my safe space to rant. I hate Endometriosis! I hate what it's doing to my body, I hate the fact I need to write it down on forms, I hate that it took so many years … Continue reading 6.2.17
Well in good news, I'm 10 pounds down from where I started which I'm delighted about. I've started to use My Fitness Pal which is a fantastic way for me to count the calories and monitor what I'm eating. I'm actually really proud of myself for getting into the habit of writing down what I'm … Continue reading 3.2.17
When my GP said that the next few days would be rocky while I came of Pregabalin, he really wasn't joking! It wasn't too bad on Wednesday when I took 2 of my usual dose rather than 3... But yesterday was vile. It started off with me waking up with cold sweats as I'd not … Continue reading 16/12/16 – Day 1